The body needs sun. The Soul needs to grow through experience. The heart needs to sing and dance. All needs to fly.
Keeping any of these needs locked away is a slow decay, an invitation for pain to layer in a-void-ance.
In times when I’m avoiding, I notice it becomes hard to sit up straight. Whether I’m eating, peeing, or sitting on a couch, the fetal position beckons, and sitting up straight to create or meditate – forget it; I’d rather do almost anything else.
I do remember kindness to myself and find that when I fully give in to good nap, I wake up more ready to shine through the clouds and hone in on what I’m avoiding.
Focusing on my solar plexus one day, I realized a powerful part of me was hiding out there in a cave of my own making. On top of that, my heart, shoulders, and head had so much tension in them curling around to protect that part in that cave.
Naturally, I wondered why I was hiding my power. The answer that came was judgment. First was judgement from others. In the past I’d been called so many things… airy fairy, mental giant, out-of-control healer, too creative… to name a few of the labels that I adopted as a judgement.
I found it hard to be at peace when I felt like people were judging me and my mentor Michelle reminded me, “It’s not hard to be peace when others are judging you unless you are judging self. The answer is always coming back home to love for self and remembering others’ journey is not our business.”
The none of my business reminder is profound because that’s where I have a tendency to give away my power by trying to control what others think of me out of fear of being judged. In reality, I get lost when I start to believe the judgments whether they are from others or from myself.
So if one side of the coin is self judgment and the other is judgment from others, I toss it in a wishing well fountain giving it all to Source for transmutation into loving all parts of myself and my journey. And so it is. I let my heart fill and love flow.